Crazy Cat

I am still chuckling even though this happened last night. We have a crazy cat. That's all I can say!! He is constantly giving us the giggles, unless he is chasing DH, and even then he gives us the giggles (DH doesn't think he's funny though LOL) Doesn't he look like a one legged cat? LOL

DS, as you know, spent the week in Washington, DC at the National Student Leadership Conference. He is still telling us stories of his week, which sounds like it was a lot of fun. They visited several government agencies (to which DS refers them to as "undisclosed locations" Sounds very Roswellian doesn't it?), a few different Smithsonian Museums, amongst other things. They did some role playing of a national crisis scenario in which they designated different roles to different students (DS was the Vice President). When I asked what he did for his role, he said "All I did was write and deliver press releases." LOL (I wondered if most of them said "No comment" as I know how much DS HATES to write papers!!) I guess that's about right what the Vice President does...deliver press releases! And at the end of their scenario they ended the crisis peacefully. Whew! Ok, I think if DS ever runs for office, I'll vote for him. I want every crisis to end peacefully!!

Wow, sorry, chemo brain took over for a minute. I WAS writing about Thomas. Ok, back on track! I said what I did in the above paragraph because DS packed a huge back pack (reminiscent of DH's ruck sack that he used to take to the field with all his gear) to take on his trip. He was unpacking it last night and then threw the empty back pack on the couch. It was only there a brief second when we heard a strange noise and when I turned my head it looked like it had come alive. It wiggled and jiggled and finally came to a rest. Cautiously we crept toward the seemingly alive "luggage" and peered inside, and this is was we saw.

Yes, our crazy cat had crawled inside and made himself comfortable. I think he was wondering what all the hype was about when the flashes kept going off in his face. We finally left him in peace once the paparazzi session was over. Oddly enough he didn't stay in there long afterward. It may have been because when DS packed to come home, it was all dirty laundry. I'm surprised he crawled in there in the first place...but then cats don't seem to mind smelly places as much as we humans do. LOL .

All's well that ends well. We let the cat out of the bag. LOL *Hugs*

For the Record...OUCH!

Hi Folks!

What a week! On top of missing my number one son (he'll be home tomorrow, I can't wait!!), I had another week full of appointments. I was feeling better from the last chemo, but should have taken into account that I would experience fatigue. Me...being me...decided to plod on because getting out in the evening felt so good at the time. I ended up missing an appointment on Wed (THEY canceled...not me) thank heavens, because I just ran out of steam! However, yesterday and today were physical therapy appointments where they poked, prodded, stretched, deep tissue massaged and worked over some scar tissue from surgery. Can I just say OUCH!?!? Then they took me to the "gym" and had me exercise on the hand bike and the weight lifting machine along with some band stretches. Two days in a row of that was a bit much because my muscles are complaining!! LOL I know in the long run this will help, I've been through physical therapy before, but not after surgery. That's a whole other animal. I've been good up to this point about whining...haven't I? Ok, I've had my whine, I feel better LOL Onwards and upwards...tomorrow will be a better day...right? RIGHT? Please say YES!!!

After PT today, DH decided he wanted to see a movie. We haven't been out in quite some time, so off we went to find something to watch. We ended up seeing Charlie St. Cloud. Ok, I secretly knew that Zac Efron would be in this movie, and I'd heard he had matured quite a bit as an actor. Not to mention HE TOOK OFF HIS SHIRT....*ladylike drool* I should be ashamed of myself right? I mean I'm old enough to be his Mother for crying out loud. Still, I'm not dead yet, and I couldn't help smiling at some of the shots of his fantastic physique. I held DH's hand at the appropriate time and cried in all the right spots so he wouldn't notice the dreamy smile on my face LOL. It was a sad movie, but I liked it...color me weird. I won't ruin it for anyone who is hoping to see it even though I'm dying to say something here. *biting tongue*

I did a bit of stitching on my UFO yesterday, the Rose Quaker. I worked mainly on some leaves on one of the roses. I wish I could correct this so you could see the colors in this pattern. I have to say, this is one of my favorites. So here are a few pictures so you can see how I got on.

I've had some wonderful surprise phone calls this week. It's great connecting with family and friends I haven't heard from in so long. It's kinda sad, though, that it takes an illness like this to get those phone calls to come in. Either way, they have brightened my day! Thank you Dianne, Wendy, Renee, Needleworker, Gillie, Sonya, Mom, Marc, Miss M, Miss D and the others who've been able to catch me at home. I hope I didn't miss anyone. You guys really brighten my day.

Ok, off to watch some TV and veggitate while I spend my last night childless. Even though I missed him, I mean REALLY missed him, it was nice to have DH all to myself for a little while. He's my rock!

And you guys rock! Thanks for reading. *Hugs*

What have I done?

I think I've created a monster! A texting monster...that is.

DS has been begging for texting on his phone. He has been going off on trips with school, church and now the National Student Leadership Conference in Washington, DC. They use text to communicate when they are out in large groups and so last weekend we changed our phone plan to include texting. However....I think the only one he has been texting is ME! Ok, I don't have a qwerty keyboard on my phone, which means I have to punch a multitude of letter combinations to send out a text. *sigh* I can't wait for my new phone!! We just dropped DS off at the American University for this conference and I kid you not, in the last hour I've gotten 16 texts!!!!!!!! I finally told him to stop texting, I was going to take a nap.

I headed for my room, and before I knew it I was joined by a snoring husband and a loudly purring cat. My phone has quit buzzing, but now my room is. Is there no rest for the weary in this house? I think not!! LOL

So here I am...and I decided to try on my wig for the first time since I brought it home. I actually wore it to an appointment this morning, then down to drop DS off at the conference. We stopped at a Subway for lunch and ran into someone who I know that doesn't know I have cancer. She never even batted an eye when she saw me. It was comforting to know that she didn't stop or do a double take, so must be my hair looks like a little bit longer version of what it used to be. I feel much better now!!

It is a mild day, considerin...though very high humidity. I'm pleased to say the wig is not too hot, thank heavens! I think I can wear it during the summer, though not too long at a stretch. It is comfortable for a while, but does seem to get tighter as the day wears on. Wimpy aren't I? Actually, to tell the truth, my scalp still aches a little. It's funny how sensitive your skin becomes during chemo. But, I managed to get a quick picture of it this morning. Let me know what you think.

I'll be heading into Baltimore Wednesday for a proper wig fitting, and a little trim to make it look more like my hair. DH and DS seem to think it looks good on me but I value a lady's opinion. You can be as honest as you like. I still have to do a double take when I walk by a mirror. LOL

Hopefully DS will be too busy in the next few days to text, and then I'll have a proper qwerty keyboard for texting then. I'll let you know how that goes! Till then, keep smiling! *Hugs*

I'm a bald bunny....

I'm a bald bunny, ain't got no fur...
I'm a bald bunny, Brr Brr Brr
I'm a bald bunny, feeling pretty silly...
I'm a bald bunny, feeling mighty chilly!

Just quoting a song from Veggie Tales. But I thought it was appropriate since I went and had all my hair cut off. Yep, I'm a bald bunny!!

I woke up early this morning in time to get the call from my son saying he would be arriving at the church at 6:45 AM. I quick grabbed a shower and noticed that ALOT of hair was going down the drain. And my scalp was sensitive to the movement of washing my hair. Add that to the strands falling out as I was combing my hair, I thought today had better be the day. So....OFF WITH HER HAIR!!

We picked DS up at 6:45 AM, ran to Mc Donalds for breakfast because we were all hungry, then took a nap until it was time for my pills. I decided I had better call my hair dresser again, since this is her last working day until Wednesday. I knew I wouldn't be able to last that long. I rummaged around and found a nice soft scarf, and away we went. And here is the new look...

I can't thank Susan enough for taking time today to fit me in. Not only that, but she wouldn't let me pay her! I'm going to miss my monthly pamper session when I get my hair cut and pep talk. Susan has been there every step of the way with me, praying and supporting me. We'll keep in touch, Susan!! After this is all over, I'll be back there getting my hair cut again. I think having her cut my hair off today was as hard for her as it was for me, but she treated me with kindness and dignity. You are a sweetheart, Susan! Thank you so much!!

Sounds like DS had a great time at Big Stuff. There are no pictures to tell the tale, so I guess I'll have to look on facebook and see if anyone there took pictures. He came home with a sunburn from the day at the beach followed by the evening at the pool. OUCH! It looked pretty sore, but he still allowed me a hug in front of his peers as he was walking towards us from the bus. I guess he missed us, though he'll probably never admit it! He bought me a CD of the group that sang there and I LOVE IT!! I sure missed him. But this is a temporary stop, as he came home to do laundry and will be leaving Monday morning for the National Student Leadership Conference in Washington DC next week. My little boy is growing up, and I'll be missing him for another week. I'm glad he's able to get out and away from all the stress here at home, it's good for him to be around non-sick folk!

I have a picture here of DH and Thomas. Now Thomas does like DH sometimes. When he's cold, he likes to sit in DH's lap. Just don't pet him or look in his direction. Thomas is allowing you to keep him warm, that does not include any touchy feelly nonsense.

"Don't think I'm suddenly your new pal, I just want the warmth of your body. Don't do me any other favors, please!!"

Thomas has added another favorite sleeping spot to his repertoire. He's quite long don't you think? I can just hear his thought processes. "Why don't humans make these chairs just a tad wider. I mean come on...with my head butted up against one arm, and my butt butted up against the other, I'm crinkling my ears and tail here. I'll have to groom for hours when I'm done just to smooth out my crinkled hair. Humans, don't they understand that they are here to provide for MY comfort? Sheesh....they are SO hard to train!!"

And last but not least, a little picture of the progress on my Rose Quaker. I take this with me on my Thursday chemo treatment and progress on my UFO. I belong to the Friendly Stitchers yahoo group and Thursday is our UFO day. Last Thursday I completely forgot about stitching!! I had to confess and assume the position for the obligatory lashing by the wet noodle. So many of the ladies refused to believe that an earthquake hit that following Friday, but Mouse graciously let me off for "creative excuse writing". LOL I get NO respect! You ladies DO know that the earthquake was for real, don't you? Anyway, I think it's coming along nicely, don't you think?

I'm feeling so good after this last treatment, I was out for the count by this time last treatment and was so dreading this one. But the doctor adjusted a few medications and told the ladies at the infusion center to slow down the administration of one of the drugs and low and behold, it was a transformation!!! I can't believe how much better I feel this time around. I'm still fatigued, but the headaches and the yucky feelings are just vague stirrings this time. I even have a great appetite and can drink whatever I want. I'm enjoying snow cones, yummy, thank you Susan!!

I forgot to mention, Miss M took me to my treatment last Thursday. I was getting a headache and she graciously ran out to get me a Tylenol at the gift shop and found this cute angel pink ribbon pin. I had to put it on right away. Wasn't that a thoughtful thing to do? So here it is on the shirt I was wearing that day. Thanks Miss M!! I love it!

Ok, off for a nap before church tonight. Good thing I was able to get past this so quickly, I have appointments every day next week! No rest for the weary I'm afraid. *sigh* Oh well, if God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it! Have a great day!

*Hugs*

Two down....Six to go!

Just a drive by dash off to let you know I'll be in hibernation mode for the next couple of days. This round of chemo went a little better. They slowed down the administration of the one drug and I tolerated that MUCH better! I also took a Tylenol while I was there. Last time the whole process touched off a Migraine and it was days before I got things under control. So far, no headache, YAY!

I had such good news at the doctors today. He told me I looked good, the blood work came back showing I had low iron stores, so he's going to refer to me to another doctor. *sigh* A Gastroenterologist...and we know what that means. Colonoscopy here we come....*groan*. But he also told me I could take less of the steroids (they made me feel yucky!!) and more of the Zofran (nausea medicine) and I feel a little more like I have options on how to make myself feel better. I'm glad!! He also told me I can take a 3 week break between the two different drug regimens and that will make my trip to Cirque du Soliel in October fall on a week when I'll be feeling my best! I could have hugged him!!! This is the same guy that blushed when I told him I was thinking about a pink wig, so I think my excitement would have been too much for him! LOL We bought these tickets in February....it is going to be my 50th birthday gift and I've been looking forward to it for months. When I found out it would fall two days after a chemo treatment I was REALLY disappointed, but now it looks like I'll be able to go *turning cartwheels* (OK, not turning cartwheels literally, but in my mind I'm doing cartwheels and black flips too! LOL)

I did have an interesting experience while sitting at my chemo treatment. I saw the nurse get up and put a jacket on, and I saw my friend, Miss M, having goose-bumps on her arms....but I was sitting there getting warmer by the minute. I asked the nurse if getting warm was a side-effect of the medication. She said no, but welcome to the wonderful world of hormones. Good grief! They told me it would throw me into menopause if I hadn't reached that part already. Guess what!?!?! I was having a hot flash!! Wow, red letter day, I think that was my first one. It didn't send me screaming into the night looking for a tub full of ice cubes, but it was a bit uncomfortable for a while there. LOL As if cancer, surgery, and chemo wasn't enough to deal with. What a combo. BUT...In the immortal words of Babs...This too shall pass!

The other thing I learned about today was chemo brain. I told the nurse I had had about a week long brain fog. It was hard to read, to follow things on TV, to stitch, and that I was having trouble finding the right words to say. She said that was very common and to google chemo brain. I found that so many of the symptoms described what I'm experiencing to a T. I'm glad to know that it is real, and that it's not just a figment of my imagination. I don't know whether it will be long term or not. So all those misspelled words and unintelligible sentences were not due to my craziness. I'm relieved! I hope it's not long term, and it really was distressing, but now that I know, I'm glad to know it's common and hopefully won't last forever.

And on that note, I'm heading off to enjoy my evening and relax. I can already feel the chemo brain descending and I just want to go vegitate, and maybe make myself a snow cone. Did I mention that I got my hair cut yesterday, and that my hair dresser had read my blog explaining about having to buy the wig somewhere else? She also read that I was looking for syrup to make snow cones...and she knew where to buy the syrup! So when I got to the appointment, she had three bottles of flavoring AND she let me borrow her shave ice machine! I'm blown away by her generousity and her loving kindness!! Thanks Susan! I'm heading upstairs to make my first one! I'll say a toast to you!

Thanks for all your kind comments, prayers and good thoughts! You guys rock!

*Hugs*

Image Recovery

Don't you just love that title? I took a little trip to the Image Recovery Center yesterday. After my 2 hour experience there, I can see why they named it that!!

Yesterday was a GREAT day! Not only did I feel really good, and I mean REALLY good, but my ego got stroked a bit too! I woke up feeling so good, the best I've felt in a really long time. It is making me dread Thursday more than ever! LOL

I have to say, the consultant that I met with yesterday was wonderful! She has a difficult task. I wish I knew how to describe how I'm beginning to feel about the changes taking place in my body. Some of them I didn't even realize were "bothering" me until yesterday. I remember when in nursing school so many years ago, we learned that a "cranky" patient is dealing with so many things while ill. First, they feel rotten and cannot control how they feel. Second, they are dealing with loss. Loss of independence, they have to rely on others, and that is difficult for some people. Loss of identity, they become one of the multitudes and lets face it, Doctors are busy people. They don't always have the time to stroke people's egos and so you just become one of the members of the large cattle call that gathers in their waiting rooms. And then there's the loss of your "image". Whenever there is surgery, or diseases that effect the way you look, you lose yourself, the way you've always looked to yourself in the mirror. This lady I dealt with yesterday knew how to discuss the tough issues and leave my dignity intact. I have to say, she has a rare gift, and I'm grateful that she made the experience much easier than it could have been. When we left, DH said to me, "She would be a perfect funeral director." Sounds morbid, and like an insult, but he meant it to be a compliment. She knew how to put you at ease while discussing difficult topics in a calm and soothing voice and unhurried manner.

"It's AMAZING what they are doing with plastics these days!!" This is a quote I will NEVER forget! This quote has bounced around in my head many times since this cancer journey has begun! Back in the late 70's when the first Star Wars movie came out, I went to see the movie with a group of kids that lived on my floor in my dormitory at college. I sat with my good friend, Miss E. There was a part in the movie when Luke Skywalker lost his hand, and they replaced it with a bionic one, that probably worked better than his original one. As Luke was flexing his new fingers, Miss E leaned over and said, "It's AMAZING what they are doing with plastics these days!!" I giggled through the rest of the movie. I don't know why that struck me so funny. I even wonder if she remembers saying that (I'll have to ask her one day). But I have to say, that quote popped into my head yesterday many times.

I had no idea when I walked in there yesterday, what exactly I was in for. I knew I was going to get a compression sleeve which was the first thing we tried on. It came in two parts, the sleeve and the glove. I had given her my measurements last week, and she had it ready for me when I got there. And (forgive the pun) if fit like a glove. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get this on without help...it's like trying to put a girdle on with one hand! LOL My arm instantly felt more comfortable. I didn't realize how much it was bothering me until then.

She left that on my arm, shooed DH out of the room, locked the door to the shop, and began to ask questions about bras. I was a little surprised, I didn't realize I was going to be looking at THOSE types of prosthesis!! Hm...I wish I could describe what I saw yesterday without going into graphic detail. My jaw literally dropped when I realized what they can do to make you look natural after a mastectomy. If I have to have radiation, that can seriously alter what the plastic surgeon is working on now. The "alteration" doesn't just happen instantly and you're done. It can occur over an extended period of time leaving tissue to shrink more as time goes on. So my Doctor can do the best that he can, but that doesn't mean it's going to stay that way. I now understand the look on his face when I told him I would have to have more surgery, chemo and possibly radiation. All his hard work during the first operation may be altered again and again as we go through this process. Anyway, there are prostheses that they can produce that are unique to you that can make you appear natural no matter what you are wearing. What a relief to know that! And she was able to give me some prostheses that I can adjust myself as I'm going through the process of having my expanders filled and before I have the final surgery. I didn't realize this was going to happen, but I walked out of there looking like my old self, and I have to say that lifted my spirits tremendously! Getting dressed in the morning has been a frustrating experience since the first surgery. None of my clothes fit they way that they used to. I finally stopped looking in the mirror, because, to me, I looked like a cross dresser no matter what I put on, and I felt like a freak show! LOL When I walked out of the back room sporting my new "look" I saw the look on DH's face, and I could tell he approved! *wink* Sometimes I wonder what goes through his mind.

Then our attention turned to wigs. She took a look at my hair color, and the style I was wearing yesterday, and disappeared into another back room. She came out with two wigs. Now I've been stressing over this because my hair dresser wanted to take me to a place that she knew of, I had been to another one at the medical center where I had the surgery, but I learned afterward that I had to go where my insurance told me I had to go, otherwise they wouldn't pay for the wig. The image recovery center is where I would have to buy it. I don't know how I'm going to tell my hair dresser, we've been friends a long time. Hopefully she'll understand. Anyway, the first one I tried on looked the best of anything I've seen so far. She put it on, and DH said...."That's the way you used to wear your hair in college!" He's right!! It was like turning back the hands of time. LOL It's not a lot different than the way I wear it now, just a little bit longer. Then, something neat happened. The lady told me that her cosmetologist wasn't there today, but I could make an appointment and she would "fit" the wig (make some alterations to make it fit my head), cut the bangs because they are a little long, and teach me how to brush and wash the wig. Then she would teach me how to apply makeup for when my eyebrows and eyelashes fall out. She would also cut my hair off (if I still have any left), apply the makeup and I would walk out of there all dolled up!

Last, but not least, I got a lesson in how to take care of my skin to have the best chance of healthy regrowth after all this was over. I'm telling you, I felt hopeful for the first time about all the changes taking place in my body. I felt "normal" when I walked out of there yesterday when I had all but given up hope of looking natural until more than a year had passed and all the plastic surgery was done and my hair had grown back. I definitely had my image recovered. What a great day! What a great Monday! And we all know what my Mother always says..."So goes Monday, so goes the week!" Maybe this round of chemo won't be so bad after all!

Thanks to all of you who tried to help with my hydration problem. I've stocked my shelves with peppermint tea, freezer pops, and am on the hunt for some flavored water. I've also decided, that even though I'm not supposed to have caffeine, if a coke is calling my name, I'm going to answer! LOL ANY liquid is better than none! If it helps, then maybe I can drink something else to compensate. I'm also trying to hunt down a way to make snow cones here at home. I have a little blender that can chop ice, I just need to find flavoring, I have no idea where to look...but I think that might taste good.

I felt a little lost yesterday, as DS wanted to help me find my wig. We put him on a bus Sunday night for his trip to Florida so he missed all the fun. He'll be gone until next Saturday. I'll miss my cheering section! LOL I'm really glad he has this trip to take a break from the reality here at home. I can't imagine what Daytona is looking like this week, with Big Stuff going on down there! There was a huge touring bus full of kids from our church and there are kids pouring in from churches from all over the country there this week! I think I'm glad I'm in Maryland!! I know they'll all be great kids, but I also know how much they like to "Praise" very enthusiastically! LOL Will you join me in praying for their safety and growth while they're away? Thanks!

Back to bed for me. I was lying in bed thinking about this post, about my day, and thinking how tenderly the Lord is caring for me through this whole process, and I wanted to share that with you! Hope your week started as well as mine! *Hugs*

Water water everywhere and not a drop to drink!

I was lying in bed tonight thinking (dangerous I know! LOL) and I had a thought. I know others have been through chemo before, and maybe if I ask nicely, someone might have a suggestion. Let me first say, though, I'm not looking for sympathy, I really don't feel sorry for myself, I just want to be prepared for the next round. I'm thinking that I'll never know some things unless I ask. And most of you have been so very kind to pray for me, think of me, send healing thoughts my way, that maybe you can send some practical help my way as well.

My first round of chemo wasn't fun. My primary problem was that I was supposed to stay hydrated and NOTHING tasted good to drink. Plain water was probably best, but has always made me feel yucky. There are flavored waters, and I did try some, but they either had an artificial sweetener which gives me migraines (and believe me I had a few after the first round) or they tasted yucky and left me nauseous. Anything with a lot of carbonation or high in sodium left all my tissues swollen making my body ache and the lymph edema flair up. Anything dairy left me with acid reflux. Anything with caffeine is on the no-no list as it can have a dehydrating effect, though coke and iced coffee tasted sooooooo good and soothed my stomach (in frustration I finally drank some though they told me if I did I was supposed to drink the same amount of something else to compensate). Ginger ale was recommended, but was too sweet...another nauseating effect. Anything citrus (orange juice, pineapple juice, grapefruit juice and lemonade) gave me mouth sores. Mouse mentioned peppermint tea (thank you Mouse!!!) and I'm going to get some before the next chemo session and try it! Maybe others of you know of something I could try. I could feel my body dehydrating and it left me so frustrated as it's something that should be easily controlled, but nothing seemed to work.

I know that some of you aren't able to leave a comment here, so if you could e-mail me with your suggestions at tickledpinkone@gmail.com I would really appreciate it!! And just so you know, I belong to a breast cancer support group and I know there are other ladies who attend who haven't started chemo yet that I'm going to share this information with. So you won't be helping just me...I've been doing my best to share successful helpful ideas with others, because I honestly believe that sometimes the Lord allows things like this for a variety of reasons...to either strengthen us for another task that lies ahead, or to offer help to someone else. We're all on this journey together, and any help we give or get along the way is not coincidence!! I'm still thanking God and praising Him for cancer!

I got to attend church last night for the first time in a long time (our church has started having Saturday night services). I've been either recovering from surgery or chemo and haven't been able to attend. Because my white blood cell count will be lowered due to the chemo I'm afraid to be around large groups of people, especially church going huggers and kissers. I love God's people!! I just don't love the germs....I feel a little like Howie Mandel LOL. Having a smaller Saturday night service offered at just this time doesn't seem coincidental to me! Amazing how God provides, isn't it? Anyway, it was good to thank the people who have been praying for me and to show them that God has been listening and answering. The message was on God's Grace, and learning to relax in His Grace. Something I needed to hear! Thanks Pastor Kevin!

Last, but not least, I'm going to ask for prayer for the kids in our church. My son and a bus load of other teens and chaperons are leaving this evening for Florida for a week long youth conference. My son has been so good to me since I've been diagnosed. I am going to miss his sense of humor and his sweet spirit so much. Will you pray for their safety with me? He's been my companion through so much of this journey, I think I'll miss him in ways this year that I've never known before. Thanks for listening and thanks for your help! You guys are great!

*Hugs*

(Just a small edit here...)

I've been e-mailing my buddy "Needlworker" (another yahoo groupie) about a proposed "gown" I'm tempted to make and bring to appointments. She and I have been tossing around ideas and she has me rolling on the floor!! What do you think? Should I really make this gown and would I have the intestinal fortitude to actually wear it to an appointment? Anyone have any suggestions? I'd love to hear them as well. And if I do make a gown, I'll be sure to post pictures. Let's see what we can come up with! LOL I told one of my doctors that I had my eye on a pink wig and his reaction was to turn 15 shades of red and shuffle through some papers he had in his lap. He had trouble looking me in the eyes after that. I think he's been searching for the correctly shaped screwdriver to use to tighten my loose screws! I tell you, I'm making a name for myself, not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing? LOL