Checking in

Hi there!

I decided I had better update just in case you visit and see I haven't posted in a while. I'm still here, though things have taken a different twist. This last round of chemo sure is taking it's time passing!! I can't wait for food to taste good again!! Because this time when it does, it should stay tasting good, or at least I hope so!

Yesterday I ventured out for the first time since last Thurs. My good friend, Sonya, was having a birthday and I needed to give her a birthday hug. So I climbed out of my bed and went to visit her at her job...which happens to be my LNS! LOL I stopped to talk to folks up there, did a little shopping, came home and went back to bed. Who knew that little trip would wipe me out? We made plans to have a stitch day tomorrow but unfortunately or fortunately...depending on how you look at it, that has been canceled. I wanted to see everybody, but that little trip yesterday wiped me out! I spent the entire day in bed today, except for now when I'm here typing to you. Lots of things are going on and this is the time (7 - 10 days after treatment) when my white blood cell count is at it's lowest. I'm not sure if I caught a bug (which can be bad when your immune system is compromised), or just tired myself out, but UGH!! I just want to feel human again! *whine*

I'm going to confess, at my last doctor's appointment I was told that indeed something is going on at the site of my gallbladder surgery. The ultrasound showed that my liver is enlarged. The pain I've been experiencing is neither imagined nor exaggerated! Thank heavens, I thought I was losing my mind! They tell me there is nothing to be alarmed about, that it could be effects of chemo, or just inflammation from the surgery, but they will recheck it in 6 months. Hm...I'm not sure how I feel about that. Let's just say, that my Dad passed away 18 months ago from a liver disease that they never found the cause of, so I understand how important a liver is and I want to keep mine healthy!! They also discovered another little infection and I've been on antibiotics since last Friday. Let's just say if you shook me I would rattle (from all the pills) and I'm sure the reason it's taking me so long to recover this time is all the little "issues" I have floating around in my body. Well my one wish for Christmas this year is a healthy body next year!! LOL

I've not answered any e-mails from my yahoo groups in ages. For that I apologize. I was going to try and answer a few tonight, but I'm already thinking about my nice comfy bed upstairs...and will probably end this and head up there. Writing this, I hope, if anyone from the groups read this they will understand my silence.

Lastly, I just wanted to mention Elizabeth Edwards. I don't know if you've heard of her, if you live in the US you can't get away from the news stories about her. She recently lost her battle with cancer. It began in her breast several years ago. She fought it and thought she had won, then it returned, attacking other areas of her body. Elizabeth was a class act. She overcame so many tragedies in her lifetime, the loss of her teenage son, battling cancer not only once, but twice, supporting her husband through his political campaign only to be betrayed and lied to by him. She handled everything with grace and dignity and I admire her beyond description. Her friends and family are in my prayers tonight and will be for some time, I hope you'll join me in supporting them with your prayers. Until I began this journey, I never truly understood this fight. I'm truly saddened by her passing, but I hope she is at peace now and getting the rest she deserves.

Hug someone you love tonight...you never know what tomorrow brings. *Hugs*