Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Small update...

Hi Everyone!

Just a little update. I know I haven't written much lately, life keeps getting in the way. Where do I begin?

First off, I've been doing a little training at the store. The boss hired someone to work full time while I'm convalescing. She's a wonderful girl, and a great framer, she was in the right place at the right time and I think the bosses shop will really benefit from her expertise! (I hope I still have a job when all is said and done, because I think she's REALLY much better at my job than I am!)

I still don't have a surgery date yet, as it has taken me this long to see all the doctors, listen to all the pros and cons and choose the type of treatment I want. I haven't made the final decision yet, I have another doctor's appointment on Wednesday. Hopefully by then I'll know what I want to do and then he can get together with the breast surgeon and pick a date. This has been an incredible journey and I've really had to think long and hard about what is truly important in my life. I know the Lord allows obstacles in our lives for a reason. I really wish this one weren't so BIG, but hopefully the benefits will weigh the same as the heartache! LOL The first visit with the breast surgeon was so upbeat and positive, I really thought it was going to be so easy. I would have been much easier if I didn't have choices. But as one doctor put it, I have to decide what will make me happy in the end, and that is such a tough chore. DH has told me to take him out of the equation, but for a people pleaser such as myself, that is very difficult. It almost seems selfish. And the hardest thing to wrap my brain around, is losing a part of myself (and I realized I've been going through a grieving process), a part that identifies myself as a woman. It's almost like losing a limb to me. Weird eh? But, it's either that or perhaps suffering down the line with other health issues or even losing my life. I choose life, and life "worry free" and as healthy as I can make it. Hopefully my family and friends agree. The only downside that I will have trouble dealing with, is the possible loss of strength in my arms. This could be a career ending move. And I truly love framing. But where the Lord closes a door, He opens a window. So I say....BRING IT ON! It's never too late to teach an OLD dog new tricks. LOL

When the surgery date is planned, I'll post it, and then it may be a while before you hear from me again. In the meanwhile, I have a stitcher's retreat this weekend. I can't wait to get away with my pals and stich and laugh and eat and laugh and laugh some more. After the past month, I need this more than words can express. So...take good care of yourselves! If my camera shy friends cooperate, I'll have some pictures to post when I get back. *Hugs*

5 comments:

Gillie said...

Have a great time at the retreat, DJ, and lots of hugs and prayers as you make your decisions.

nutmegg said...

Enjoy your retreat and know my thoughts are with you, take care dear friend....xoxo

Maureen said...

enjoy your retreat and yes we want some piccies! thinking of you.

The Pegster said...

DJ, let me give a big virtual hug, we all think of you.

Mylene said...

Hope you are having a good time at the retreat, DJ.